back...the past one month lots of things happen... First i got debarred from exam and have to re-take my 2 subjects... Secondly, dad got into hospital due to high pressure...and the doc told me and my bro not to let him have anymore pressure from anything...So my dad told me and my bro the get back to the office to help...We don't have any choice other than obeying his orders...He is my dad after all...All the relative and my dad's girlfriend call and persuade us( force...haiz... ) to go back to the company the take over...Quite pissed...He in hospital for one week and got t0 go back once a week for checkup...Like what my dad say...You already don't have a mother...Do you want to lose me?...It hurt me deeply when i heard this from him...Do this mean, he don't feel any care and concern for him?So i got the quit my job and go back unwillingly...So as my bro...But after 3weeks, which is now...things sort of brighten up...as i always remind myself...life ain't tough for me...kids in those third world country are worst...look on the bright side to brighten myself...So there goes my ambition... Lastly, after my dad got in hospital i seal myself up with alot of people...even my brothers...i just feel so usless and i don't answer calls from anyone...i will laugh and make jokes now...but death pop up during those days...Mom call me to take care of Dad before she passed away...i didn't do a good job...i can't even do somethings to please Mom...i don't even dare to admit that i mom's most adored son...i don't feel that i m capable to be one...i just hide all of this to myself...i know bro feel the same way...but we just don't say it out, however i and bro got closer after this incident...weird huh?...when i want to find someone the chat and stuff...i can't think of anyone...so i just the door of my heart to all those great friends i have...Being strong ain't my speciality...In the end, those that cared the most is still all the brothers and even kras,ba and suresh...it is like i even never pick up suresh calls during the 2 weeks...so he ask me what happen...i told him the truth and he just ask if my dad is well...and he never mention it again...i m just tired...Very tired...
Lets talk about the present...Today and the next few days till Sunday...i will be tour guide for Luke...He is my client's son...My client went to China for bussiness...and he send his son to come to Singapore alone...So i will act as a tour guide and bring him around and stuff...He is 16 this year...This is the second time we met...The previous time he here was for a day or so...So didn't have much communication with him... As watson and the rest...They bought the board game risk and we played in once or twice a week...i really have fun and laughter with them...they brighten up my day...No matter how down i am...I appreciate everything...Although i always get into to stupid things...but i just wished to say thanks...I maybe unlucky in everything...But i m lucky to have you guys around me... still alive @ 5:14 AM
